down the dusty road

Hello there readers.

I am sure that those of you who have been looking for updates have been a little confused as of late. Let me fill you in with some detail….about 3 weeks ago I got back from Quebec Missions Reality, and a week after that I broke up with my girlfriend.

It has been a really crazy couple of weeks, and alot of thinking and learning, and growing, and soul searching, and crying out to God. But, by His grace, I think I am coming through, with a new perspective on life, and definite goals for growth.

This whole final semester here at Word of Life has been such a stretching experiance. I praise God for it all, and though it has not always been fun and good times, even the valleys of life are good when God directs us there.

I find it hard to believe that in about 15 days I will be done with the academic part of my stay here, and be about to graduate from Bible school, done with a first part of my adult life. So much has happened, that my head spins at where I have been, and the roads I have walked.

God is moving, this is sure.

Looking ahead, not sure what I am doing for the week of break after the school year, but once I return for summer camp, I will be a tech supervisor here. That means I will be running most of the tech for the Ranch, and will be discipling some of the high schoolers who come to work for us. Alot of work, and challenges that I don’t exactly feel adequate for.

So that is my life, as it has been, in a nutshell. Would greatly appreciate your prayers.

~Peace~ the StormRider

Not As Strong As We Think We Are Rich Mullins

Well, it took the hand of God Almighty To part the waters of the sea But it only took one little lie To separate you and me Oh, we are not as strong as we think we are

And they say that one day Joshua Made the sun stand still in the sky But I can’t even keep these thoughts Of you from passing by Oh, we are not as strong as we think we are

CHORUS We are frail We are fearfully and wonderfully made Forged in the fires of human passion Choking on the fumes of selfish rage And with these our hells and our heavens So few inches apart We must be awfully small And not as strong as we think we are

And the Master said their faith was Gonna make them mountains move But me, I tremble like a hill on a fault line Just at the thought of how I lost you Oh, we are not as strong as we think we are

CHORUS

And if you make me laugh well I know I could make you like me Cause when I laugh I can be a lot of fun But we can’t do that I know that it is frightening What I don’t know is why we can’t hold on We can’t hold on

CHORUS

When you love you walk on the water Just don’t stumble on the waves We all want to go there somethin’ awful But to stand there it takes some grace ‘Cause oh, we are not as strong As we think we are

by Dido

I know you think that I shouldn’t still love you, Or tell you that. But if I didn’t say it, well I’d still have felt it where’s the sense in that?

I promise I’m not trying to make your life harder Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship And I won’t put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I’m in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again And I caused nothing but trouble I understand if you can’t talk to me again And if you live by the rules of “it’s over” then I’m sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship And I won’t put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I’m in love and always will be

And when we meet Which I’m sure we will All that was there Will be there still I’ll let it pass And hold my tongue And you will think That I’ve moved on….

I will go down with this ship And I won’t put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I’m in love and always will be

Broken pieces of the man I used to be are all that’s left of who I am A shattered mass of all my countless broken dreams. I wonder where I go from here

I found the one that I was always searching for No more empty promises I’ve come to realize what I’m worth is so much more More than how you made me feel

This wanting more….is tearing me, it’s breaking me But what [I] want’s not [yours] to give You were my dollar sign, my brand new house, My product line When I’m done with you I’m spent. When the smoke is gone I have to face what I’ve become…

Will [God] rescue me? Could [God] get me out alive? I’m trying to hold on but I’ve lost the will to fight Will [God] rescue me? Take me far away from this shattered life.

How can I go on pretending that there’s nothing wrong? Life has brought me to my knees This mask I hide behind is killing me, There’s nothing left Is there anyone who feels like me? When the smoke is gone I have to face what I’ve become…

lyrics by Seventh Day Slumber altered slightly to fit what I want to say